Challenges
Comments(0)Yesterday I felt really crappy.
Everything felt wrong; my clothes were wrong, my hair was wrong, my stomach ached and I felt like shit.
Came home and tried to break down the feeling of crappyness into smaller pieces, so that a solution could be found.
Crap-stuff:
- I have stomach-ache every day
- I hate the mornings, the part were I choose what clothes to wear is the worst. I put my alarm-clock at 06:30 every morning although I don’t leave home earlier than 07:45. I try on clothes for about 15-20 minutes, and I never feel satisfied.
- I worry a great deal about what others think about me, and always expect worst-case-scenarios. (”I bet he/she thinks I’m too slow/too happy/too quiet” etc)
- I see every part of my every-day life as a competition, there’s a lot of those, for example the Best Outfit Competition, the Bicykle Fastest To the Sub Competition, the Creating the Coolest Flash/After Effects Movies Competition, Be the Best Classmate Competition and so on. The hard thing about those competitions is that there’s never a winner announced, I always loose.
So; what action needs to be taken?
I start off with the stomach-thing. Maybe it’s something I eat on a daily basis that causes the aches? They usually start sometime after lunch, and continues until I go to bed. I’ll try to figure out what it is by excluding different stuff every week. This week the soy-milk has to go, I’ve heard that it’s kind of hard to digest.
Next; the picking-clothes-thing. I started this morning by setting my alarm at 06:45 instead of 06:30. No time to change clothes, that is! I just went straight out of bed, into the bathroom and then put on the first pair of jeans I found, the first top and hoodie. Felt hard, but the notion of the fact that I actually didn’t had time to change my mind gave me sort of an inner peace. Haven’t regret my choise of outfit, so far.
The other two things; the competing and the worry about other people I’ll start on in smaller portions. Stay tuned for further reports!